Author: Ana Quinn

I lived in Christchurch, one of the largest cities in New Zealand for most of my adult life, until a change in family circumstances and personal for that matter brought me to where I am now, 4 hours North in a beautiful tourist town which, although is incredibly beautiful, is extremely dull, so it is a good thing that I have my loud family as distractions, not to mention a very vivid and over-active imagination. As a child, I used to write, and into early adult-hood but somewhere along the way, I lost my way if you like and blamed the following 15 years of no writing whatsoever as “writers’ block” but I believe now that I have actually picked up a pen again, that fear was a large part of it. Fear of writing some of my innermost thoughts, ideas and even fantasies on paper (or computer screen these days) and having them judged by others. Fear that it would not be good enough. Actually, although I haven’t written anything in story form I have taken part from time to time in forum roleplay stories and long running mmo storylines with others, so I suppose I didn’t quit completely. I’m a huge horror fan and a gamer from way back. I love everything by Stephen King, I’m a huge Silent Hill fan and I’ve played countless rpg horror games. So, in my spare time, which can be all too rare, often, I like to read, write (obviously) and play video games. I look forward to sharing my work with you.

A Way Out


a way out

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Gravity


And you said you need me to let this go
Buts its who I am or am I just losing it
Cos you said jump and I went first but falling’s always been my downfall

But I know you lied when you said that you just had enough and save yourself
So hear me out
You know everybody talks
And it means nothing till you let it
And if you keep second guessing then theres only gonna be one end

But you can leave if you really want to
And you can run if you feel you have to
And I can drink if I feel I have to
I know its hard, but I can’t feel like I used to
Like I used to
Cos I used to defy gravity
Defy gravity
Goodbyes keep dragging me
Down

Credit ~ http://iameden.eu/

Semi-hiatus


I suppose I’ve been on one for a little while now anyway, although I’ve tried to post at least something regularly, but the truth is that I need a bit of time out to try and find my writing bones again, or at least something to write about that has some substance.  Mostly I just need to breathe and to think and try to find those things that I used to feel grateful for every day.

Due to some personal circumstances beyond my control I just feel as if I have nothing to contribute here for the moment that is in any way positive.  I don’t want to be one of those people who pour out every misfortune on their blog, although you’ll forgive me if I do feel the need to do that from time to time.  It is still my space to use as I wish and part of that is a personal venting platform.  I’ve never been a good bottler of emotions, as those of you who have followed me for a long time well know.

I will be back and am still around in a very limited capacity.  Thank you for your support and your continued support of me, and of the things that I create and share.  I appreciate all of you.

Reason #47


Quite simply, because you hold nothing back from me. You have to know that every single raw emotion and thought that you share with me, be it happy, loving, sad or at times even incredibly ugly is what has drawn me closer to you than any other human being I have known in my entire existence. Honest and real is all I’ve ever wanted and needed and that is how you have become my entire world.