They leap and hope to God they can fly because otherwise they just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down “Why in the hell did I jump?” But here I am, falling…and there’s only one person who makes me feel like I can fly, and that’s you.
Because you’re with me always, no matter what has come before and where we are now. I used to think that was a bad thing, that I couldn’t just erase you from my mind, but maybe it’s all as it should be. Whatever will be will be. And like a good friend used to say to me often about the unexplainable – It just is. You’re with me, whether I, or you, like it or not.
It just is.
Because you’re perfect for me in a way that nobody else is, was or ever will be because you know me completely and love me unconditionally because of or despite that. I don’t care which – it works.
“Learn to swim.”
“Strangers passing in the street. By chance two separate glances meet, and I am you and what I see is me.”
Because you changed the way I see everything. I see and feel you everywhere, in the sunset, in the stars at night, a song on the radio, the numbers on a clock, my dreams. Everywhere. Nothing has been the same since the beginning, and nothing will ever be the same again. I still have a lot to smile about and be grateful for. Especially you. Knowing you, even if for a short time in the larger scheme of everything was nothing short of miraculously unexpected in every way. A one in a million chance, you might even say. The good times, happy days and memories of you far outweigh anything else. But God, do I miss you. Your absence is felt like a part of my actual self is missing. Time, no matter how much passes, will never change that.
I wrote a whole notebook of reasons why, just for and about you. I hope that means something to you, one day, or that it still exists, even. And I still miss you. You see, that’s what happens when you love someone, they’re never out of your thoughts for long, and every day without them just reminds you of their absence and you wonder how and what you did before they were there because you just don’t know what to do anymore now that they are not.