And you said you need me to let this go
Buts its who I am or am I just losing it
Cos you said jump and I went first but falling’s always been my downfall
But I know you lied when you said that you just had enough and save yourself
So hear me out
You know everybody talks
And it means nothing till you let it
And if you keep second guessing then theres only gonna be one end
But you can leave if you really want to
And you can run if you feel you have to
And I can drink if I feel I have to
I know its hard, but I can’t feel like I used to
Like I used to
Cos I used to defy gravity
Goodbyes keep dragging me
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I suppose I’ve been on one for a little while now anyway, although I’ve tried to post at least something regularly, but the truth is that I need a bit of time out to try and find my writing bones again, or at least something to write about that has some substance. Mostly I just need to breathe and to think and try to find those things that I used to feel grateful for every day.
Due to some personal circumstances beyond my control I just feel as if I have nothing to contribute here for the moment that is in any way positive. I don’t want to be one of those people who pour out every misfortune on their blog, although you’ll forgive me if I do feel the need to do that from time to time. It is still my space to use as I wish and part of that is a personal venting platform. I’ve never been a good bottler of emotions, as those of you who have followed me for a long time well know.
I will be back and am still around in a very limited capacity. Thank you for your support and your continued support of me, and of the things that I create and share. I appreciate all of you.
“The devil and his had me down
In love with the dark side I’d found
Dabblin’ all the way down
Up to my neck, soon to drown
But you changed that all for me
Lifted me up, turned me ’round”
Because you are, always have been and always will be my King, and I, your Queen.
Quite simply, because you hold nothing back from me. You have to know that every single raw emotion and thought that you share with me, be it happy, loving, sad or at times even incredibly ugly is what has drawn me closer to you than any other human being I have known in my entire existence. Honest and real is all I’ve ever wanted and needed and that is how you have become my entire world.
Because I am the worst morning person ever and even when I’m just awful you still greet me in the sweetest, most loving and caring way. You ask me how I slept, how I feel, what my dreams were, if I was comfortable, too hot, too cold, what my plans are for the day or what I want to do with you and I grump all the answers back at you with one eye open and not even wanting to be alive for the day yet. I do not deserve your patience most mornings but it is what I receive and I just want you to know how much I appreciate it. Truly.