They leap and hope to God they can fly because otherwise they just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down “Why in the hell did I jump?” But here I am, falling…and there’s only one person who makes me feel like I can fly, and that’s you.
Because you’re with me always, no matter what has come before and where we are now. I used to think that was a bad thing, that I couldn’t just erase you from my mind, but maybe it’s all as it should be. Whatever will be will be. And like a good friend used to say to me often about the unexplainable – It just is. You’re with me, whether I, or you, like it or not.
It just is.
Because you’re perfect for me in a way that nobody else is, was or ever will be because you know me completely and love me unconditionally because of or despite that. I don’t care which – it works.
For the smiling, the laughing and the happy times, for those were the happiest of times I’ve known; the feeling of security and belonging like I’ve never felt before. Your acceptance of me for who I am, your support, kindness and unconditional love. These are the things that I don’t wish to or intend to ever forget.
Because we still have so much to talk about, despite you saying there is nothing, or you have nothing. That’s okay, a little silence never hurt anyone. We’ll get back to talking about nothing and everything again soon. It’ll be worth waiting for. For now, I’d like to just sit beside you in silence and hold your hand. Let me do that, would you, please? We can just be, for now.
Because I have never found enough words and still can’t and won’t for you to understand how I feel and how I feel about you. I have tried and they’re not enough. If I could do one thing right, I would be able to say something or do something so that you would know, really know. What I know is that nobody will love you the way that I do, and I hope you know that one day too. You say that I don’t understand anything, but I think it’s you that doesn’t. I hope you do one day. Please understand one day. Every word I’ve ever said meant more than you know. I hope you know that one day. I love you more than words. Please don’t forget me. Please don’t forget anything. Please remember every single day. And if you can’t, these words will always be here to remind you that I tried, should you revisit them sometimes. You always were and are everything to me.