sad

Reason #67


Because you changed the way I see everything.  I see and feel you everywhere, in the sunset, in the stars at night, a song on the radio, the numbers on a clock, my dreams.  Everywhere.  Nothing has been the same since the beginning, and nothing will ever be the same again.  I still have a lot to smile about and be grateful for.  Especially you.  Knowing you, even if for a short time in the larger scheme of everything was nothing short of miraculously unexpected in every way.  A one in a million chance, you might even say.  The good times, happy days and memories of you far outweigh anything else.  But God, do I miss you.  Your absence is felt like a part of my actual self is missing.  Time, no matter how much passes, will never change that.

Day Old Hate


So let’s face it this was never what you wanted
And I know its fun to pretend
Now blank stares and empty threats
Are all I have, they’re all I have.
And isn’t it great to find that you’re really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel safe.
So drown me and if you can
Or we could just have conversation.
And I fall, I fall, I fall down
But I found you, before I drift away

Reason #47


Quite simply, because you hold nothing back from me. You have to know that every single raw emotion and thought that you share with me, be it happy, loving, sad or at times even incredibly ugly is what has drawn me closer to you than any other human being I have known in my entire existence. Honest and real is all I’ve ever wanted and needed and that is how you have become my entire world.